Those who always will be....

I got this poem from somewhere have scribbled it on my notebook....can't remember when or where I took it but it struck a chord somewhere....

There comes a point in your life when you realise...
who matters,
who never did,
who wont be
and who always will
So don't you worry about people from your past
There is a reason why they didn't make it to your future........

There are some individuals in your life that matters....sometimes you thought these [people will matter for a long time but situations change....and surprisingly, they fade in time. Then...just like the sand that washes to the shore with the next wave......there are others that matters. I totally relate to that 'who never did, who wont be and who always will....'

Nothing is permanent. But as long as these friends don't piss me off, don't take my friendship for granted and betray my trust, I think I will give my support AS BEST AS I COULD no matter where we are, where we will be and who we are with....

I am here again in HK trying to give some physical or moral support to my buddy who is currently not so well....
However, he's okay now and whether I have helped or not....I don't think so. I think he's okay now...being his old no-nonsense self, moving up and about (when he shouldn't be) and smoking like a chimney as he'll always be. The pain is there....he's trying to be macho about it....but like it or not, I'm being a pest here with my mom-like nagging. But hey! I'm still a companion, like it or not :)-

At the same time, it's good to use this opportunity to catch up with other friends. It was free ticket after all, and the lodging is free....and so, here I am and will be for the next few days till I go back home again.

Till then....I have another new topic coming up which I will write about, very soon. So, stay tune to Ms Wannabee agAIN....

Hari Raya Family Reunion & Penang....

My biggest and main weakness....procastination...took hold of me again and I kept on postponing updating this blog. Not for the lack of things to write about but I was just plain lazy! No other reasons....this laziness is not doing any good at all....have been sleeping more, working less and you can see that from my continuously tickening waistline and chubby face.....urgh...nevertheless, I'm still hot! (hahah!!!)

Okay, the fasting month came and went...there was that trip to Seoul, back to HK and Xian...a superb trip and big success if I may say so myself. After that, after 2 years... its back to ramadhan at home and a big raya do with my beloved family.

After more than 10 years of partial get togethers, it was full house this time. My parents finally managed to have all the 3 sons with respective daughter in-laws, daughter (still no husband), all the 7 grandsons and 1 grand-daughter for a get-together on the first day of Hari Raya. What a joyous, happy and (not to mention very noisy) occasion it was....

I contributed my part this time. yeah...it was good to have everybody under one roof. However, as much as I love my family, I still need my own time. I've was the good daughter, sister and aunty for that week and with that done and over with, I managed to slip off to Penang for a few days of frenzied eating and pampering with my 2 close buddies.

What a gastronomic trip it was....Thanks also to Azmer and Allen for showing more good places to eat. Gurney Drive was no exception of course....we went there in pouring rain and yet still managed to eat to our hearts content. Nasi kandar, nasi padang, Sawtow Lane and Penang Road ice kachang and cendols and of course, to satisfy Karen's craving, durian on the way to Balik Pulau.

Apart from eating, it was also a self-indulgent trip for 3 of us. We ate, we went to spas, we have scrubs and massages from hotel spas to beach-side massages....and the hotel...it was a marathon of luxurious hotels. I wanted to try different experiences and the 4 nights were spent at the swanky boutique G Hotel, luxurious Rasa Sayang with a bathtub in the balcony and the elegant E&O hotel with our own 'butler'...wow!!!!!! I WAS SOOOO BORN FOR THIS!!!!!!!!!!!

After the 'high' of the past week, Ms Wannabee is slowly coming down back to earth ......

Again and again ...

I reread the contents on my previous posts and realised that I have been writing about this 're-adjustment' process over and over again. Sorry if there were too many reference to it...though I did say it was no big deal but come to think of it again, I supposed I have been harping at nothing else but this topic since coming back . Okay, that's it! No more!!!!

The re-adjustment topic is now closed and from now on I shall not touch on this topic again.

Till then, Ms Wannabee will move on with her life....

Sorry for the long silence...

Where has Ms Wannabee disappeared to??????

I know, I know…everybody has been asking that question…so sorry…I just did not have the time nor the inclination to write. The first excuse was no laptop/computer/Internet access at home but that is no longer the case….

Then next excuse and most major was the lack of inspiration….I lost interest…must be due to hectic schedules, and also that ‘not in the mood’ feeling…re-adjusting life back home is harder than expected…physically and emotionally.

Of course it is much easier here, I have the luxuries of living in a bigger space, no bills to pay, don’t have to take public transportation, there’s always home-cooked food and yet…there is this feeling of disquiet…it is just not the same.....

I missed my freedom, my singleton freedom....

I am not married and yet…the commitments, filial duties…..it may not make sense…but those who knows me and my way of life here will probably understand what I am going through…..I just return from HK again a couple of weeks ago and I realized that my life is vastly different ….I loved my single life away from home …but here….I just don’t feel like a single girl.

Oh anyway…I’m not going to dwell too much into this. Thanks to the support and understanding of my close friends…they help me to stay sane and cheerful.

The ‘pep-talk’ always helps and I just have to pull my chin up, move on and make the best of this situation….And...if push comes to shove...if things are really bad...I'll just take a few days off and fly off again. Yes...that's going to be my way of distressing myself.

Thank you my dearest friends...

You’ll hear more of me soon again….Au revior!

PS: Ms Wannabee also wishes to welcome another new reader to her small and modest fan club…Welcome Mel!!!