Wishing all my friends and love ones Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha. Maaf zahir batin...if there were any mistakes in my words or conducts, please accept my sincere apologies. I hope we've buried the hatchet, buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih. Moving forward, blue sky and happy days....(or as close as can be) :)-
I spent a day in Kuantan(one of the east coast states) the place where I was born, my dad's hometown, getting acquainted with my relatives. Also took the time to indulge myself. Stayed at the Hyatt and paid extra for the sea view room. While the hotel is quite run down and room facilities are quite tired looking, the sea view is still spectacular.
It was worth it.....the last time I stayed here I was 15 years old and I remembered being woken up with the sound of the waves....I dunno why....ever since then... it has always been one of my favourite things...to be in place...close enough to the beach and hear the waves as it crashes into the shore..to hear that sound...early in the morning, really sooth the soul.....
And that I did....waking up early morning, listening to the waves......feeling contented and thankful, peaceful and serene......basically happy with the whole world.
Of course....when you were feeling that good, it never last long. Good old Bard has to bring my back down to earth and burst my euphoric bubble by reminding me...that the waves I love so much could be a potential tsunami......yeah...TSUNAMI.....Duhhhh....
Out went that peaceful,serene and happy moods. I could not sleep with the balcony door wide open anymore after that...imagining the gentle waves that lulled me to sleep could turn into giant, vicious waves that could tear my room apart....I'm not ready to die in such a way yet.
And what did I do? Got up, showered, went down for breakfast and checked out.
Thank you my dear....I love you for it :(-
PS: Despite that ending, Ms Wannabee enjoyed herself and her brief solitude....
Friday, November 27, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
The long awaited New Moon
Yeah...I am a shameless Twilling fanatic. Totally loved all the Twilight saga books and I have read, reread and reread each novel thousands of times. If there is an exam on Twilight, I would have been one of the thousand fanatic fans who will happily sit for the test.
Yesterday, we were lucky to get free tickets for the premier screening of the much awaited sequel, New Moon. Gosh! It was just the excitement needed for vampire love story fanatics and yours truly is one of them. And so...as the movie began....we began to see the story from the pages that we have so lovingly read thousands of time came to life. To see Edward Cullen and Bella on screen again....oooohhhhhh sooo romantic......I can't help but swoon....
To add my five cents worth of movie review, I would say that in the popularity race between Edward Cullen and Jacob Black...if you did not watch the first Twilight movie, then you would like Jacob more than Edward. However, if you have seen and read the first movie, then you would still love Edwards, though I have to admit that Jacob is quite endearing in the persistent, sure of himself, knows what he wants kind of way. And of course, that superbly buffed, hunky dory body of his....hhmmmm....
But there is the subtleties of being loved and pursued by an aggressive, hot-blooded, broad-shouldered with a superbly sexy body 17 year old compared to being loved by a matured, 104 years old octogenarian who still looks like a 19 years old. You don't love him on first sight but he grows on you. Yes...indeed he does ....even though he is just a pale and pasty looking bloke (to quote Stefanie's description of him).
The ending was quite disappointing. But never mind, they have not deviated too much from the original storyline. For that, we, the loyal legion of Twilight fans is greatly grateful and can sleep well that night. After all, we all know what's gonna happen next....
Ms Wannabee still yearns to be worshipped and loved by an Edward Cullens or Jacob Black.......(sigh)........
Yesterday, we were lucky to get free tickets for the premier screening of the much awaited sequel, New Moon. Gosh! It was just the excitement needed for vampire love story fanatics and yours truly is one of them. And so...as the movie began....we began to see the story from the pages that we have so lovingly read thousands of time came to life. To see Edward Cullen and Bella on screen again....oooohhhhhh sooo romantic......I can't help but swoon....
To add my five cents worth of movie review, I would say that in the popularity race between Edward Cullen and Jacob Black...if you did not watch the first Twilight movie, then you would like Jacob more than Edward. However, if you have seen and read the first movie, then you would still love Edwards, though I have to admit that Jacob is quite endearing in the persistent, sure of himself, knows what he wants kind of way. And of course, that superbly buffed, hunky dory body of his....hhmmmm....
But there is the subtleties of being loved and pursued by an aggressive, hot-blooded, broad-shouldered with a superbly sexy body 17 year old compared to being loved by a matured, 104 years old octogenarian who still looks like a 19 years old. You don't love him on first sight but he grows on you. Yes...indeed he does ....even though he is just a pale and pasty looking bloke (to quote Stefanie's description of him).
The ending was quite disappointing. But never mind, they have not deviated too much from the original storyline. For that, we, the loyal legion of Twilight fans is greatly grateful and can sleep well that night. After all, we all know what's gonna happen next....
Ms Wannabee still yearns to be worshipped and loved by an Edward Cullens or Jacob Black.......(sigh)........
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Here and there....
It has been quite hectic since last Friday...first, was the trip to Sing. I think I only slept a total of 4 hours over that weekend. The main intention was to visit a sick relative but along the way, there was a birthday party for a seven year-old, and I was roped in to help along wiht the cooking.
Then...there were more visiting around...considering the last time I visited these group of relatives were 9 years ago...there were lots of catching up to do this time. How time flies...all the children have grown from toddlers to modern and trendy teenagers now....
Nevertheless, these branch of relatives are real fun to be with. They are loud and cheerful, despite a looming shadow of death...(the sick cousin is really in the end stage....). I suppose, life goes on...you don't dwell on the pressing issues but make the most of life. Rejoice and be thankful that HisAlmighty still grants you extra precious time with your beloved family and friends....
After 2 nights in Singapore, we drove back to KL. Come Monday, had to catch up with looming deadlines and day to day chores, not to mention the Bootcamp. UUURRRGGHHHHH...WHY Do I put myself through this......but it kept me occupied.
Have I lost weight and is there any decrease in inches from the stomach, thighs and arms????
Hhhmmmm ... don't think so. With the increased workouts, came the increase appetites and I kept on telling myself that all those calories will burn itself out during the training. And so...that's how it goes....
Oh well....it is not even a month yet...give it 3 more months.....I'm sure I'll look HOT soon!!!!! HAHAHHAHAAHAHAH!!!!!!!
Ms Wannabee's knees still ached from the 3 miles jog amd her arms will be sore tomorrow after doing 60 rifle lifts with squats....
Then...there were more visiting around...considering the last time I visited these group of relatives were 9 years ago...there were lots of catching up to do this time. How time flies...all the children have grown from toddlers to modern and trendy teenagers now....
Nevertheless, these branch of relatives are real fun to be with. They are loud and cheerful, despite a looming shadow of death...(the sick cousin is really in the end stage....). I suppose, life goes on...you don't dwell on the pressing issues but make the most of life. Rejoice and be thankful that HisAlmighty still grants you extra precious time with your beloved family and friends....
After 2 nights in Singapore, we drove back to KL. Come Monday, had to catch up with looming deadlines and day to day chores, not to mention the Bootcamp. UUURRRGGHHHHH...WHY Do I put myself through this......but it kept me occupied.
Have I lost weight and is there any decrease in inches from the stomach, thighs and arms????
Hhhmmmm ... don't think so. With the increased workouts, came the increase appetites and I kept on telling myself that all those calories will burn itself out during the training. And so...that's how it goes....
Oh well....it is not even a month yet...give it 3 more months.....I'm sure I'll look HOT soon!!!!! HAHAHHAHAAHAHAH!!!!!!!
Ms Wannabee's knees still ached from the 3 miles jog amd her arms will be sore tomorrow after doing 60 rifle lifts with squats....
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Welcome Amrita!
Hi Amrita,
Thank you for following my idiotic and chaotic musings....
Happy reading my dear. It is an honour to have another reader who makes her living from writing, reading my blog. But please, let me stress again, this is of no commercial nor scientific value (unlike your kind of writings), so please ignore all the imperfections you'll come across eh....
And so...Ms Wannabee warmly Welcomes Ms Amit into her FAN CLUB...(Applause, applause !!!)
Thank you for following my idiotic and chaotic musings....
Happy reading my dear. It is an honour to have another reader who makes her living from writing, reading my blog. But please, let me stress again, this is of no commercial nor scientific value (unlike your kind of writings), so please ignore all the imperfections you'll come across eh....
And so...Ms Wannabee warmly Welcomes Ms Amit into her FAN CLUB...(Applause, applause !!!)
Mixed Emotions
This week have been quite up and down for me. It started on a high note, then plummeted down with with something close to an argument which I had with a close friend. To do it during working hours via chatline....that was sooo idiotic!
But that had been settled and the air has been cleared....or so....I hope that will not mar our friendship, which I truly value.
Then when things seem quite okay for the rest of the week, suddenly this morning I was given an upsetting news with unexpected new deadlines. While it is good for business, it is not good for my own peace of mind.
My R&R plans for the end of the year had to be scrapped off since my leave was frozen due to an unexpected new project and I could not leave until mid January. UUUUrrggghhhhhhh!!!!!! And I was hoping to take time off...maybe go back to HK or accept another friend's invitation to London. Oh well....looks like I have to postpone my holiday plans to another month.
When thing seems quite endless and boring...suddenly I was jolted with a new proposition. Yeah...jolted is the right word for it because...there I was...oblivious to anything aorund me and suddenly I receive a caller with an unexpected proposition......and a pleasant news at that. I have been given a new potential....something that might change my life altogether.....
Anyway, it is still too early to tell. Only that I am honoured to be given this opprtunity. Wether I get it or not, it doesn't matter, at least all my hard work and professional image haAve been noticed. And so...I left the office in a euphoric state and as happy as can be.
Ms Wannabee is back to dreaming all the impossible dreamssss...
Good night!
But that had been settled and the air has been cleared....or so....I hope that will not mar our friendship, which I truly value.
Then when things seem quite okay for the rest of the week, suddenly this morning I was given an upsetting news with unexpected new deadlines. While it is good for business, it is not good for my own peace of mind.
My R&R plans for the end of the year had to be scrapped off since my leave was frozen due to an unexpected new project and I could not leave until mid January. UUUUrrggghhhhhhh!!!!!! And I was hoping to take time off...maybe go back to HK or accept another friend's invitation to London. Oh well....looks like I have to postpone my holiday plans to another month.
When thing seems quite endless and boring...suddenly I was jolted with a new proposition. Yeah...jolted is the right word for it because...there I was...oblivious to anything aorund me and suddenly I receive a caller with an unexpected proposition......and a pleasant news at that. I have been given a new potential....something that might change my life altogether.....
Anyway, it is still too early to tell. Only that I am honoured to be given this opprtunity. Wether I get it or not, it doesn't matter, at least all my hard work and professional image haAve been noticed. And so...I left the office in a euphoric state and as happy as can be.
Ms Wannabee is back to dreaming all the impossible dreamssss...
Good night!
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
The Bootcamp Battle begins
I never knew that I have a sado-masochism streak in me. This week is the third week I put myself through physical torture and agony that is the Bootcamp. When I told my brother about the bootcamp activities, instead of motivating me and telling me what a strong girl I am, all he waid was "..and you are paying them for this?"
Hmm...I dunno how to answer that.
Somehow the quest for size 10 bikini seemed as ludicrous as it could be. But one thing for sure, I can't back off now. This is do or die situation. I just want to give my best shot and see how far I could go. At the moment, still no where because I am still amonsgt the last to finish each exercise.
Now, for 3 mornings each week on Monday, Wednesday and Friday from 5.45 to 6.45am, I struggled bleary eyes out of bed and make my way to Padang Merbuk at Tasik Perdana. This is the KL Alpha Team. If anybody is late or AWOL, then the whole team gets the punishment. Talk about "one for all, all for one"....if anybody is caught cheating (walking instead of running...or not following orders), the rest will have extra time added to their 'torture' (exercise).
The first week was a trial week...I came home each time covered in mud (head to toes!)with aches and pain...Walking, sitting down, getting up is so painful (everywhere!)..going up and down the stairs is the worse! I feel like a heavily pregnant women (no that I know how a pregnant women feels like since I have never been pregnant).
I supposed all those unused muscles for the paST 37+ years have finally been put to use. It has yet to get better...but this is hardly the first month and I still have 3 and half more months to go!
However, as much as I hated the pain...each time when the class is over...one feels soo proud and elated for having achieved such feat. Yeah, I call it a feat coz I never knew I could do such things!!
The trainers (Sarge and Corporal) really knows how to push you. They seem cruel and relentless on the field but I guess they know what they are doing and they know your limit and will push you over and over again.
Physically, as much as I hated the pain...I think I must have improved myself a bit, and now, I could say that I have some decent stamina now compared to 3 weeks ago. In the first trial....I spent most of the time laying down on the ground (next to my vomit) but in the 2nd and 3rd trial...I managed to stay up. That was a real motivation...
For 3 mornings each week, we struggle with grunts, lunges, push-ups, sit-ups, squats, running, jumping, sandbags, rifle (pvc tube filled with concrete, that weighs a tonne when you are really tired), ropes (yeah! weighs a tonne too when you really have no more energy to lift and carry it around), tyres (not the car type but those big tractors type. i couldn't even move it in the first week but I was shocked when I found that I managed to flip it last week!!!)and God knows what else awaits us. It sounds really easy but believe me...only if you are in this bootcamp, you'll know how scary those things are!
Come rain, hail or snow....there is no excuse. I have really outgrown my OCD nature. There is no such thing as wet tissue or sanitiser. As it is a wet season in KL now..the field is wet and muddy. And so, at the end of each class...yours truly will stagger out of the field tired out of her bones, completely bedraggle and covered in mud (and who knows what else!) from top to toe. Luckily I have a very good and diligent helper at home. She will dutifully clean my muddy clothes, shoes and socks (yes, the mud seeped into the socks too)and have them clean and dry before each class. I really must give her an extra allowance for this.
And so...my personal battle continues. Worse come to worse...there is always Marie France and Philip Wain but I realise that as long as I can still push myself physically, I will continue. The trainers and team members are equally supportive too....and I know they are other team members as weak as me.
No matter what, I shall reach my aims for agility, strength and that size 10 bikini by the end of this 4 months. And I shall be one of the prime examples of "remember that lady who collapsed during the warming up session in her first trial....?"
Till then....as they shout at the end of each session...HHOOOO YEAH!!!!!!!
Hmm...I dunno how to answer that.
Somehow the quest for size 10 bikini seemed as ludicrous as it could be. But one thing for sure, I can't back off now. This is do or die situation. I just want to give my best shot and see how far I could go. At the moment, still no where because I am still amonsgt the last to finish each exercise.
Now, for 3 mornings each week on Monday, Wednesday and Friday from 5.45 to 6.45am, I struggled bleary eyes out of bed and make my way to Padang Merbuk at Tasik Perdana. This is the KL Alpha Team. If anybody is late or AWOL, then the whole team gets the punishment. Talk about "one for all, all for one"....if anybody is caught cheating (walking instead of running...or not following orders), the rest will have extra time added to their 'torture' (exercise).
The first week was a trial week...I came home each time covered in mud (head to toes!)with aches and pain...Walking, sitting down, getting up is so painful (everywhere!)..going up and down the stairs is the worse! I feel like a heavily pregnant women (no that I know how a pregnant women feels like since I have never been pregnant).
I supposed all those unused muscles for the paST 37+ years have finally been put to use. It has yet to get better...but this is hardly the first month and I still have 3 and half more months to go!
However, as much as I hated the pain...each time when the class is over...one feels soo proud and elated for having achieved such feat. Yeah, I call it a feat coz I never knew I could do such things!!
The trainers (Sarge and Corporal) really knows how to push you. They seem cruel and relentless on the field but I guess they know what they are doing and they know your limit and will push you over and over again.
Physically, as much as I hated the pain...I think I must have improved myself a bit, and now, I could say that I have some decent stamina now compared to 3 weeks ago. In the first trial....I spent most of the time laying down on the ground (next to my vomit) but in the 2nd and 3rd trial...I managed to stay up. That was a real motivation...
For 3 mornings each week, we struggle with grunts, lunges, push-ups, sit-ups, squats, running, jumping, sandbags, rifle (pvc tube filled with concrete, that weighs a tonne when you are really tired), ropes (yeah! weighs a tonne too when you really have no more energy to lift and carry it around), tyres (not the car type but those big tractors type. i couldn't even move it in the first week but I was shocked when I found that I managed to flip it last week!!!)and God knows what else awaits us. It sounds really easy but believe me...only if you are in this bootcamp, you'll know how scary those things are!
Come rain, hail or snow....there is no excuse. I have really outgrown my OCD nature. There is no such thing as wet tissue or sanitiser. As it is a wet season in KL now..the field is wet and muddy. And so, at the end of each class...yours truly will stagger out of the field tired out of her bones, completely bedraggle and covered in mud (and who knows what else!) from top to toe. Luckily I have a very good and diligent helper at home. She will dutifully clean my muddy clothes, shoes and socks (yes, the mud seeped into the socks too)and have them clean and dry before each class. I really must give her an extra allowance for this.
And so...my personal battle continues. Worse come to worse...there is always Marie France and Philip Wain but I realise that as long as I can still push myself physically, I will continue. The trainers and team members are equally supportive too....and I know they are other team members as weak as me.
No matter what, I shall reach my aims for agility, strength and that size 10 bikini by the end of this 4 months. And I shall be one of the prime examples of "remember that lady who collapsed during the warming up session in her first trial....?"
Till then....as they shout at the end of each session...HHOOOO YEAH!!!!!!!
Sunday, November 8, 2009
My 38th Birthday!
Happy Birthday to me! Last year I celebrated my birthday in the circle of close and dear friends in Discovery Bay and this year I enjoyed my own company. The parents went away to visit a sick relative in Singapore, I would have gone along but due to work, got left behind. But I didn’t mind, needed time alone anyway. I have been sooo tired, with outings and projects the past few weeks plus the aches and pains from the Bootcamp which still have not fade from this aging body.
This weekend is the best time to recharge my battery. And so today, there is nobody in this house but my faithful helper and my own company.
I wanted to sleep in and wake up as late as I could but unfortunately got woken up with work-related phone call. Damm! There went my beauty sleep. Could not go to sleep anymore after that. But luckily, it was a solitary morning, the helper was somewhere in the house… while I get to made my own breakfast (which is not as often as I like), with the food that I WANT to eat. Usually mom dearest prepared the breakkie, so have no choice but to eat whatever that was prepared.
It was to be a day of leisure and I was happy because I managed to do just that. I relaxed, watched tv and then by noon I decided to go out. Of course, being my birthday today…it is a day of indulging and pampering myself. Started with a few hours at the spa followed with a few hours of retail therapy….it was soooo relaxing…..Now, that's what I caLLED A BLISSFULL LIFE……This is how life should be…
Alas, this is one of the best birthdays for me. My gifts were not as many as last year but compared to last year but its okay. I only got 2 things this year…..but like I said, its okay…especially counting the 10k extra spending money (never mind it’s just on credit) and this cute fuschia pink netbook which is sooooooooo cute and pretty. It is a Sony Viao no less! Hehehehe…(Bard really hates me for this).
I know, I know…I just got a laptop couple of months back but somehow….despite the earlier attraction…we just didn’t fizzle together. Must be the size or the weight. Anyway, this is gift, I can’t say no to it. And so…thank you to my loving friends who made this possible for me. I feel soooo blessed….
As part of my birthday rituals… (a ritual which I only started after I reached 35)I spent a standard 3-5 minutes for deep contemplation You know..."why, how, what, where I am now" kind of questions and thoughts.
I still havent got the answers till today. Have I reached a milestone in my life??? I dunno.... My friends always say that I am too critical of myself...but hey, its my life..
I am 38 now. If I were to compare my life to my siblings when they were 38, I would have to perform the hara-kiri now or live in shame. Apart from work (and that is not something to be proud of sometimes), nothing changes.
I’m still the same person with the same thoughts as when I was 18 or 28. Older does not neccessasarily mean wiser and I am the true testament to that. I still don’t know what I’m doing and still unsure where I’m heading with my life. There is NO long-term planning here….it’s just a day to day existance.
Oh well..., there is no answer. I don’t want to waste too much time to dwell on big question marks in life so that is why I only limit myself to maximum 5 mins on contemplation only. Why do I want to depress myself? Better do other things and think happy thought......in a true Wannabee nature.
And so, after a day of full indulgence (I sooo deserve this after working back-to-back the past few weeks) I am now refresh and fully rested. I also spent quality time with my second brother and his loving family for abirthday dinner last night.
The spa cost few hundred, the new netbook was nearly 2k (but free), some clothes, make-up and shoes cost a few hundred more but most of all…..this feeling of happiness (especially as I am typing away on this brand spanking new pink VIAO),the peacefullness and contentment that I enjoyed this weekend is PRICELESS!
Thank you!
Ms Wannabee wishes to thank all her loves ones, friends and colleagues for the birthday messages received via phone calls, sms’s, emails, cards and fb. Hopefully, next year it would include newspaper announcement too.
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