My 38th Birthday!

Happy Birthday to me! Last year I celebrated my birthday in the circle of close and dear friends in Discovery Bay and this year I enjoyed my own company. The parents went away to visit a sick relative in Singapore, I would have gone along but due to work, got left behind. But I didn’t mind, needed time alone anyway. I have been sooo tired, with outings and projects the past few weeks plus the aches and pains from the Bootcamp which still have not fade from this aging body.

This weekend is the best time to recharge my battery. And so today, there is nobody in this house but my faithful helper and my own company.

I wanted to sleep in and wake up as late as I could but unfortunately got woken up with work-related phone call. Damm! There went my beauty sleep. Could not go to sleep anymore after that. But luckily, it was a solitary morning, the helper was somewhere in the house… while I get to made my own breakfast (which is not as often as I like), with the food that I WANT to eat. Usually mom dearest prepared the breakkie, so have no choice but to eat whatever that was prepared.

It was to be a day of leisure and I was happy because I managed to do just that. I relaxed, watched tv and then by noon I decided to go out. Of course, being my birthday today…it is a day of indulging and pampering myself. Started with a few hours at the spa followed with a few hours of retail therapy….it was soooo relaxing…..Now, that's what I caLLED A BLISSFULL LIFE……This is how life should be…

Alas, this is one of the best birthdays for me. My gifts were not as many as last year but compared to last year but its okay. I only got 2 things this year…..but like I said, its okay…especially counting the 10k extra spending money (never mind it’s just on credit) and this cute fuschia pink netbook which is sooooooooo cute and pretty. It is a Sony Viao no less! Hehehehe…(Bard really hates me for this).

I know, I know…I just got a laptop couple of months back but somehow….despite the earlier attraction…we just didn’t fizzle together. Must be the size or the weight. Anyway, this is gift, I can’t say no to it. And so…thank you to my loving friends who made this possible for me. I feel soooo blessed….

As part of my birthday rituals… (a ritual which I only started after I reached 35)I spent a standard 3-5 minutes for deep contemplation You know..."why, how, what, where I am now" kind of questions and thoughts.

I still havent got the answers till today. Have I reached a milestone in my life??? I dunno.... My friends always say that I am too critical of myself...but hey, its my life..
I am 38 now. If I were to compare my life to my siblings when they were 38, I would have to perform the hara-kiri now or live in shame. Apart from work (and that is not something to be proud of sometimes), nothing changes.

I’m still the same person with the same thoughts as when I was 18 or 28. Older does not neccessasarily mean wiser and I am the true testament to that. I still don’t know what I’m doing and still unsure where I’m heading with my life. There is NO long-term planning here….it’s just a day to day existance.

Oh well..., there is no answer. I don’t want to waste too much time to dwell on big question marks in life so that is why I only limit myself to maximum 5 mins on contemplation only. Why do I want to depress myself? Better do other things and think happy thought......in a true Wannabee nature.

And so, after a day of full indulgence (I sooo deserve this after working back-to-back the past few weeks) I am now refresh and fully rested. I also spent quality time with my second brother and his loving family for abirthday dinner last night.

The spa cost few hundred, the new netbook was nearly 2k (but free), some clothes, make-up and shoes cost a few hundred more but most of all…..this feeling of happiness (especially as I am typing away on this brand spanking new pink VIAO),the peacefullness and contentment that I enjoyed this weekend is PRICELESS!

Thank you!

Ms Wannabee wishes to thank all her loves ones, friends and colleagues for the birthday messages received via phone calls, sms’s, emails, cards and fb. Hopefully, next year it would include newspaper announcement too.